Have you ever asked yourself, ‘Who am I really? It’s an age-old question that many people ask and some never figure it out, our identities seem to tie in to what we are to certain people and how we live our lives.
After growing up in a broken home, and spending some years in a foster home, I spent many years of my life trying to figure out who I was; really. Was I really someone’s child, someone that didn’t fight for me while I was in a foster home for years? In the foster home, I was not really a daughter, I was a foster kid. I didn’t really belong, it was a “temporary” home for years. I was another mouth to feed in the home. I became a wife at a young age and for many years that seemed to be my identity but deep down that never satisfied me.
I am a mother, a wife, a daughter, a friend, even a patient.
All of my identities, everything that I believe I am, are all dependent on somebody and something else. Don’t get me wrong these are important roles in my life and I get to share my gifts and leave my mark in each of these lives but all of these are just roles in my life and are just a part of what makes me, me. What if all of these people were suddenly gone, what would be left of me? The question still plagues me, who am I?
Gifts and Talents
I believe my true identity goes much deeper than the just mere connection with someone else. God gives us all gifts and I soon realized that I could link up all of my gifts and talents in some way to my roles in my life. Character is the core of who you really are because when your back is up against the wall and you have no choice this is when your true self will show.
I am a good listener. Often times people call me to vent or to give them my opinion but most of the time I listen. People need that, they need for people to listen to them. Most everyone seems to be in a hurry these days and take very little time to slow down and listen. Listening comes easy for me. Hebrews 2:1(ESV) says;
“We must pay the most careful attention, therefore, to what we
have heard, so that we do not drift away.”
So, because of this scripture, I see God also wants me to be a good listener to Him as well.
I am Loyal. I am loyal to my husband, loyal to my children, loyal to my family even though at times they may try my patience. I am loyal to my Heavenly Father, I trust Him, serve Him, rely on Him and seek Him daily. Matthew 24: 45-46 (ESV) says;
“Who then is the faithful and wise servant, whom his master
has set over his household, to give them their (physical, and spiritual)
food at the proper time? Blessed is that servant whom his master
will find so doing when he comes.”
I demonstrate my loyalty to God and loyalty to those who He has called me to serve.
I am trustworthy. I don’t gossip, I don’t tell someone else’s story if told something in confidence I keep it in confidence. I have learned to trust God and I believe He trusts me.
Psalm 91:2 (ESV) says;
“I will say of the LORD, He is my refuge and my fortress:
my God; in him will I trust.”
I am loving and kind. I don’t just tell of my love for people, I do my best to show people that I love them and care for them. I try to have a shoulder for people to lean on. I do my best to express my concern for others situations and the things in life that they are going through. 1 Corinthians 13: 7 (ESV) says;
“Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things,
endures all things.”
I am compassionate. I can feel empathy for people, even if they don’t want it or deserve it in some people’s eye. I don’t want anyone to feel alone.
I also bear tangible gifts, I am an artist. I love to draw.
I am a musician: I play the guitar.
I am a blogger: I have been open about my health and life as well as my walk with God and how I believe completely in His word. 2 Timothy 1:8 (ESV) says;
“Therefore, do not be ashamed of the testimony about our Lord,
nor of me his prisoner, but share in suffering for the gospel by
the power of God.”
I am a daughter of a King. Not perfect, I make mistakes, but I am a working towards being more and more like my Father every day. John 1: 12 says;
“But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he
gave the right to become children of God, 13 who were born,
not of blood nor of the will of the flesh nor of the will of man,
but of God.”
Who am I?’ I am what God made me to be.