“Why Me?” is the first question we ask when tragedy strikes and I have struggled with this question a lot throughout my life.
Why did I have to have parents that were abusive in every sense of the word?
Why did I have to be born into a dysfunctional family?
Why did I have to spend most of my childhood in foster care?
Why did I have to get sick? Did I do something wrong?
Why did I have to lose my job?
Why can’t I go and do as I please like so many other people do in this world?
Dear God, Why Me?
Life is not always fair but I do believe that everything happens for a reason and God always has a plan, even if I don’t see it. I know He did not cause me to have the past that I have had and He did not cause me get sick. That is just a product of living in a fallen world.
Where Does God Fit into the Grander Scheme of life?
He is my source, my rescuer, my comforter and healer. God heals in many ways, that is something that I have come to realize. Not so long ago, I had been going through a particularly tough day and I had come to a breaking point. It felt like an avalanche was coming down on me since I had found out that I was sick with Lupus. It was one thing after the other and the bad news wasn’t letting up. I was tired of the unfairness of life in itself.
Why the Answer to “Why Me?” is Not Satisfying
That day, I asked, “Dear God, Why Me?” What did I do to deserve this? and didn’t expect the answer that I got back, “Why not me?” I had been so wrapped up in the unfairness of life, that I had forgotten that God can use every situation in my life to show His power. When I asked the question, “Why me?” there was an assumption that suffering was not supposed to affect me, that it was not appropriate or fair.
Paul states in 2 Corinthians 12: 7-9 ESV,
“A thorn was given to me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited. Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But he said to me, My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
Paul wanted this torment to end but Jesus told Him “My power is made perfect in weakness.” Then Paul says something very strange and foreign to our intellect, “Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” (2 Corinthians 12: 9 ESV) Paul actually considered himself to be in the right place at the right time with an infirmity that was going to make him stronger. In fact, Paul goes on to say,
“For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (2 Corinthians 12: 10 ESV)
Although I cannot equate everyone’s situation and illnesses to mine, I can say for me that God’s grace is sufficient for my needs.
When I am faced with the “Dear God, Why Me?” I will now stop and ask; Why not me?
How far would I be willing to go, to share Jesus with others? I could choose to stay in the why me? or I could move forward and be in the, why not me? I am not signing up to be sick, but since these things are a part of my life, I am willing to use my weaknesses as a testimony to share my heavenly father’s love with the world.
I am willing to be open and real about my life experiences and share my daily struggles as I go through this life journey. I am far from perfect, I stumble and I fall just like everyone else, but at the end of the day, I remember that I have a Savior no matter what I am facing.
Every day is a huge cross to bear for me, but I can either ask “Dear God, Why Me?” or I can take up my cross and follow Jesus. And that is the song I will sing until I go to meet my Father in a perfect place, where there is no sickness or death. His grace is sufficient for me, for His power is made perfect in my weakness.