God is always helping us through the experiences in our lives. His Word says that he was helping us, even when we did not know it. I sometimes find that hard to believe, especially when images of my upbringing rear their ugly heads in my mind. Because I suffered so much emotional distress, environmental dysfunction and economic challenges, I grew up unhappy and miserable. I sometimes wonder, "God, where were you when I was growing up, and during my young adulthood?" The fact that I suffered so much, and am still battling the effects today seem to prove that he was not there.
But that belief is only evident and justifiable in my flesh. The flesh cannot understand the things of God, and it doesn't want to. It cannot be controlled by the things of God because it is not subject to the law of God. So everything remains the same in the flesh and no Godly change happens in the flesh. The flesh is the same, from birth to death.
In my reborn spirit, I believe that God was with me always, though I did not know him as a child. His word tells me the truth about how he cares for and loves me. His word tells me about how he always had a plan for my life, and that plan came to pass when I accepted Jesus Christ as my Savior. I then acquired the tools necessary to defeat my past, with the help of God's Holy Spirit, who came to reside in me. So, now I know that I am made up of all of my life's experiences, good and bad, shaken together and sanctified and blessed daily by God. I am who I am, modified and tempered by God, a rich weaving of experiences that can help others.
That is why I say, all who love the Lord and follow Him are beautiful tapestries, though many of the experiences may not have been beautiful. Only God can weave beauty out of ugliness, and cause the loveliness of our end to surpass our beginning. Don't you agree?